My Refuge

What can I say? For several months now I've been in what you would call a desert place. A dry spell in my walk with Jesus. I've talked to Him and cried out to Him on a daily basis but really haven't been able to get into the Bible much. And usually when this happens I can whip out a devotional book and I'm good. Not this time. As of late though I've begun to notice something, God has been meeting me where I am. Everywhere I go I find a significant scripture that speaks to me. This is very refreshing. I'm so glad I have someone who loves me know matter what and says that He will always be with me. What a great promise.

Here is another great promise. A scripture verse that I ran into one day.

Isaiah 64:8 "But now, O Lord, You are our Father; We are the clay, and You our potter; And all we are the work of your hand."(NKJV)

What a great verse. I don't know about you but I need a potter to mold me into what I am suppose to be.

Two year olds and discipline

So Nicholas has this bad habit of taking his shoes off in the car. It doesn't matter how long or how short the trip, the shoes are coming off. So today I thought hey I'll teach him a lesson. We are coming home and he takes his shoes off so I tell him he will just have to walk to the door in his socks. Well it has just rained and he gets out of the car so now his feet are wet. I'm thinking this will be a good lesson for him. Well he runs through the breezeway and jumps in a mud puddle and continues to play in the rain water in his socks. So there you have it folks I guess I learned my lesson and now I have muddy socks to wash as well.

Fun at the Science Center

We went to the science center today. They have a new dinosaur exhibit and you know boys they love dinosaurs. They got to be astronauts, pretend to be EMT's, be archaeologists, and lots of other cool things.

The dinosaurs, please don't eat us. If you look really close Jonathan is in the bubble.

Jonathan the astronaut

Nicholas finally being still so I can take a picture

Nicholas the Dinosaur discoverer.

Imagination

All you need is three chairs and a big imagination and even you can be riding through the air in your very own airplane. I love being a witness to my boys imagination.

What Happened?

One day he was a baby and now he is saying things like "that's harsh". He is turning into a grade schooler and quite frankly mom is not ready. I know that doesn't make time stop but it should. Jonathan is saying things like "oh snack(snap)" and "that was totally awesome". One I say to myself where is he learning all these phrases and when did he start growing up. Next thing I know he will be a crazy teenager.

Waiting for that Day

"And He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away" Rev. 21:4

Sometimes I long for this day. Don't get me wrong I love my life, and I know since I'm still alive God has work for me. And I rejoice in that. But when I have a week and a day like this week and today I long for the day when He will wipe every tear away. As a mother you give and give and give until you feel like you have nothing left. I'm taking care of mom after her surgery and thank God my brother is here to help this weekend. And just relationships in general can be trying at times like when people snap at you and you have no clue why and they have no desire to explain why at that moment so your just left wondering, is it me or are they just having a bad day.

Also when I think about heaven I think about all the friends and family that have already gone home, and I can't wait to see them again. I guess today I'm just needing the familiar face of Jesus who love is unconditional, and you can let your mask down. You can tell him you really don't have it all together and just listen to him say I know and it's okay. You don't have to have it all together just come and rest.

Walking a Little Bit Closer

It's been a crazy week and quite frankly I'm exhausted. I worked on Monday from 8-5 then came home and cleaned the house and ran around after children. My mom had her first knee replacement surgery yesterday in which I was at the hospital from 8-6 and the boys were with me at the hospital from 3:30 until we left at 6. They were screaming they were hungry when we left so of course I decided I'll stop at McD's. When I got home the dog had used the house to do his business and I had to clean that up. Then I got the boys ready for bed. And now I am up again this morning at 5:30 because I have to go to work.

I'm not a person who deals with stress well and I tend to do too much which leaves me even grumpier. Well this summer is going to be crazy. My mom is having her other knee replaced in July so I have children, work, school, and my mom and her crazy animals to take care of this summer. And do you know what the great thing is, this morning as I was going through my crazy, hectic routine trying to get the boys feed and clothed I felt the presence of God right beside me. It was like he was saying I'm going to walk a little bit closer to you this summer. And I'm sure there will be days when he is going to have to carry me. But I am so grateful that I have a Saviour who loves me so much that in hard stressful times He does walk a little bit closer.